zetsubou desu!!!

Random ramble

One of my favourite emotions is sadness. Now don't get me wrong I'm not one of those "emo" wierdos or anything who spend their whole day moping about wishing that a bus would hit them or they would just spontaneously combust.

I, actually, would be feeling sad about something and you wouldn't even know that i were sad. It's almost paradoxical because sometimes being sad would make me happy. But not every time I'm happy is caused by sadness. Its safer to say actually that i am more "happy happy" than "sad happy" because if i were more "sad happy" than "happy happy", it would be sad. I don't even think i would be happy about that.

There is a liberation to taking a "me against the world" approach but even I, who would like to take on the world, would bet against anyone who decides to take on the world by his/her self.

A thought on friendship

Its amazing how when you're there for people they sometimes never seem to be there for you. Especially when you are going through exactly what they were going through and you actually played an active part in the maintenance of their sanity whilst they made it through.

Maybe their hesitation is due to the fact that they have suppressed the memory of the hell that they had gone through whilst in the same position you find yourself in now but I would like to think that as friends (if we indeed call ourselves that) we could rise above and relive hell. Especially since you'll have someone's hand to hold while going through that hell.

We however should never let our own current circumstance adjust your disposition towards an ailing friend (or stranger even). You may even find that dealing with your friend's current situation may prove to be a pleasant distraction from your own. And your own smaller situation may fizzle out.
(written especially for a friend)