Artee's working concept / Celestial Apology

I hate to have to admit this, geez....

Artee is right.

Now this is not in reference to reference to any of the glamorizations of love that Artee persists on posting on my site. This is in reference to conversation that we had about love. I have thought long and hard on what was said to me in that conversation. I still think that Artee is a bit too much of a romantic but there must be some truth to it.

I will not go into the explicit details of the conversation but I will share the basic sentiment. I was told that love is a choice and you must work extremely hard to achieve what you want with regard to love and that sense of personal satisfaction.

And I have come to realize that I do not work hard at all. I am not even clear what I believed with regard to love but Artee has a point. You need not only to be reminded by your partner why you love that person but you need to remind yourself. You need to make a concerted effort to keep this person in your heart and the longer you do so the easier it become. My approach to love has been flawed!

I do however believe that there is no such thing as being "in love". For in keeping with the theory that I had there is only "love". For in the infatuation stage in a relationship you are "in love". This makes it very possible to fall "out of love". For the simple nuisances that are overlooked at this stage come like a flood of reality after this stage. And if you haven't made the decision to love this person by this time the relationship is drowned.

When revelations like this hit me, I feel like a fool...
When I look back at all the mistakes I've made, it makes this no better...

I want to scream sorry to the stratosphere and hope that the celestial winds take my message of repentance to broken hearts and solace comes to those who I've hurt...

zetsubou desu...